Ever since I originally read It Starts With Food and did a full Whole 30 I’ve wanted to do it again. But, with long distance running, I have never been able to keep it up, and get in the right amount of fuelling.
When I admitted I was injured and started brainstorming how to keep myself busy (and sane!) one of the first things that popped into my head was doing a Whole 30.
Not only is it ‘good’ timing with not running, and not traveling. Yes, we’ve cancelled our Colorado/Utah road trip in June. Wahhhhh. But, it’s also something I think I need since I’ve really been struggling and stuck with my weight swaying between 163 & 171 lately. It’s sad how fast my weight creeps back up when I’m not paying attention.
My favourite thing about Whole 30 is that reminds you of the good habits, and once you’re immersed in good habits, it’s wayyyyy harder to fall off the wagon.
# of Grinds/BCMC’s : 2 - Grind closed, but made it up & down BCMC twice.
How’s my month been?
Womp womp. There really isn’t too much to say. I volunteered and cheered lots in April, and I raced once, at the Yakima Skyline 50K, which I basically hated. It wasn’t a great month for training, but I also had a prolo injection, which takes almost a week off of running as well. If I had done this recap right after April ended, I’d probably be more positive about it, but on a whole, I think womp, womp definitely describes my month.
Set your alarms! Next Monday at 8pm EST, which I’m fairly certain is 5pm out here, I’m going on a live interview on Get Out There magazine’s YoutTube channel. The “Get Out There Girls” show is premiering next week, and somehow I got signed up to be a special guest. Promo for the show can be found here.
It’s pretty exciting, but super nerve wracking, and I know when I’m on webcam I make duck faces, so I’ll have to be on my best non-duck behaviour!
And knowing me, I’ll probably end up having a sneezing fit on camera. Sigh.
All jokes aside, I’m looking forward to this opportunity, I think it’ll be a lot of fun, and also if you ever wondered what I sound like, here’s your opportunity!
So, I’ll see you here, Monday, June 2nd at 8pm EST.
One of my favourite supportive texts last week was from Murph, and it made me laugh out loud, he reminded me that being injured I “now have time to catch up on things…like knitting, and yard work, and watching paint dry…” Hahaha. So awesome.
But, it also got me thinking. What AM I going to do in my downtime?
I’d love to be one of those super injured athletes who works on nothing but bettering themselves while taking time off from their sport, or one of those athletes who goes full force into cross training and falls in love with it. But, knowing me, I know this is not likely. I pretty much hate biking, especially outside, and swimming is not really something I enjoy, unless I’m laying on a floatie, on top of my pool…
But, that being said, I do like goal setting, and I do like distractions, and I do like making lists. So, I’m making a list of things I’d like to do, like to focus on while I’m “taking a running break”
As I said in Tuesday’s emotional post, I’ve been living in a state of denial about my foot being injured for quite a while. 8 long months if I’m honest and go back to the first day I hurt it. In trying to describe how I feel to people, I jokingly compared being an injured runner, to being an alcoholic or having a drug addiction.
And then I realized it wasn’t actually that far off base. That was actually an honest true statement, and that admitting I had a problem, and wasn’t currently living in reality was a huge step. They say admitting you have a problem is half the battle. I feel like admitting you have a problem is big, but finding out what the problem is, is the bigger part of the battle. And then of course being smart, and taking steps towards a full recovery. Being a good little girl; resting, paying attention to my body, cross training, strengthening, doing whatever little exercises I’m prescribed, and most importantly, staying positive and upbeat.
But, in the meantime, while I’m resting, booking appointments, and waiting, I can’t help but feel like there should be an IRA – Injured Runners Anonymous.
Short version: I made a deal with the devil to have my last run for a while in a gorgeous stunning location, and even though sections of it were unbearably painful, I ran with a friend, and spent just over 6 hours coming to terms with the fact that I was indeed injured, and would have to stop running. But it was a beautiful place to run!
This was supposed to be posted on the weekend while I was away, but apparently the scheduled post ‘failed’. Grrrrr.
4 years ago, Jay asked me to marry him, and I said yes. Of course I did. It was a no brainer, and I had been waiting somewhat impatiently for the proposal. Sounds like me, right? No patience, and knowing exactly what I wanted.
To be honest, Jay and I moved a bit fast, and had a fairly weird courtship. I knew after a month that I loved him, and I knew after 5 months that I would one day marry him. I don’t think everyone will “know when they know”, but I do think more often than not, we do.
Not sure why I’m talking about this? Me neither. I just realized the other day that he proposed around the 18th of May, and it made me warm and fuzzy to think about. Since blogging has been a bit lack lustre lately, and really life in general has a bit of a “womp, womp” to it, I figured why not talk about something soft & fluffy?
SIGH. This is NOT a race recap from Sunday’s Sun Mountain 50K. Instead, this is a confession.
And unless you don’t have a heart, it’s probably going to make you cry. Or maybe it won’t, if your heart is black.
I’m being melodramatic, and I fully realize that, but I honestly can’t talk about running right now, without tears coming to my eyes, getting choked up, and basically I just have to stop talking.
Running doesn’t define me, but it’s a huge part of my life. And right now I don’t know where that part of my life stands, but I do know that it can’t be a part of my life right now. And that is just heartbreaking.
Hahah I have to laugh at how I’m going into Sunday’s race.
Am I ready? Definitely not.
Am I still going to start and listen to my body and see what happens? Absolutely.
I doubt that many people would feel comfortable going into a 50K and feeling under trained (or maybe we always feel like we could’ve trained more?), and I highly doubt that many people, other than the ultra community we know, would go into a 50K, just for fun, just to see what happens.
So, yes, I’m fully aware that for the most part, to most people, I sound like a crazy person saying “yes my foot is f*cked, yes my training has been sub-par at best, no I’m not going to SKIP this race, I’m just going to start and see what happens.” Fully understand where you’re coming from. I guess my brain just thinks differently now.
It’s hard to figure out what to write about, when my blogging has been so sporadic. And I can’t imagine that you enjoy seeing list after list of updates.
So, I think I’m just going to babble for a while. I’m a bit lost right now.
Have you ever set yourself up for disaster, without the information necessary to do so? I feel like that’s what I’m doing with my body. I had my MRI on Friday, and even though I haven’t received the results yet, I’ve basically decided that the results are going to be negative and that June’s running plans are squashed. Which is terribly depressing considering June is our road trip to Colorado and Utah for RUNNING. And the beginning of July is Kan3, which I decided would be my goal race for the year. The problem with that ‘plan’? I haven’t been able to train. I’ve barely made it through runs lately, and have had to cut some short, and have really just not felt great. Not since before Yakima.
And that’s just scary.
Scary because I’m not just standing still, but I seem to be taking 1 step forward and then 2 steps backward.
If you haven’t guess yet, I’m really frustrated and “stuck” for lack of a better term right now.